i'm not going to LA anymore gracie )=

hi. i'm here. you know, my computer has been officially broken for 2 weeks now. isn't that grand? well, that's my excuse for not blogging. i can only keep up with one page. (=

grace, i miss you! come visit soon! but not too soon...maybe around early december or something. (= i wanna go out to cali again. sigh...it's starting to get cold in herre. SUCKS!

is it BOY STUFF?????? (=

i wanna go to london. (=
school is getting busy. REALLY BUSY. i'm so glad i dropped a few things...otherwise i would not be sane currently. (=
come back GRACE!! (=

HELLO??

so here is a lil update on life for me since moving into my new AA residency. (= since it's just meesh and me now, things are a bit more quiet on the homefront. it's still a little bit strange for me to have a single, but i really like it. (= get to organize & arrange everything just the way i like it. i really miss our apartment dinners though. i seem to be making the same kinds of food day in and day out. gotta learn some more stuff!!

i drove by regents last night...sniff...sigh...our place has been taken over by BOYS....

grace? where are you?? are you in london??? why have you disappeared???? GRACE!!!!!!

since you have gotten rid of your comments (wise....), i just wanted to say that i am glad that you are blogging again meesh! nice list of resolutions! maybe i should make one too. ok, i already did...so maybe i should post them sometime. (= can't wait to see you...TOMORROW! with our super-duper early musta-been God's intervening-hand move-in day!!!!! yeah, that's right kids, we move in TO-MOR-ROW. har har har har. too bad i don't feel like driving. =P

still out in SD lizzzz?? soak up some sun for me! actually, don't, i'm dying out here in jersey with this ridiculous weather. where is the RAIN!? soon the garden state will be no more.... can't even water the lawns anymore.... sigh

well, tis my last night in our beloved regent apartment. despite the double flooding, the porch door that never opend properly, the backwards fridge door, the ants invasion...i must say that i have thoroughly enjoyed my time living here. (=

top 14 FAV regent memories (in no particular order):
1) walking across the ledges to put stuff on our built-in bookshelves
2) our apt dinners (=
3) omlette party
4) dumpling parties 1 & 2
5) drawing on the walls
6) paul coming over everyday to watch his movies on the dvd player
7) watching FRIENDS everyday at 6 & 7...and then every thursday night...and maybe again friday night with andrew (=
8) plucking paul's eyebrows (=
9) all the late-late-late night talks
10) our quote board (=
11) having to walk paul home across the street when he got too scared from telling his own ghost stories
12) NEW TETRIS!!!!
13) all the BBQs with the boys across the street
14) spring/summer term...every single day made me smile (=

HI GIRLS!

HAHA...grace just keeps testing everywhere. (=

ok, so maybe some of my dreams are kind of weird...but last night i met josh hartnett! i didn't even recognize him until someone pointed it out. i wonder what that means. (=

i'm finally dark! well, i'm actually still lighter than michelle, mel, and mike...but i AM darker. (=

miss you gals....

i woke up crying in my sleep again last night! this time i was fighting with my sister. what is going on in my head?!?!?!

oooh, i really like the blog on the "test." good things to keep check on. (=
the couple thing...i think i've had my share of all of them...except the last one...but that's b/c i've haven't had i guy since i finally understood what it meant to hold onto him. yeah, give me a few years. (= my guy is waiting for me out in cali somewhere....

i miss cali already! when i got back to ann arbor, it was thunderstorming...yuck. our apartment is damp and musky...not a fun place to be. sigh....

anyhoo, i gotta figure out a time to go out there again. (= gotta start saving up and planning now...hee hee hee

so i'm in cali right now! no prob for waking me up the other day lizzie. sorry if i sounded totally out of it. (= so far i've eaten at hurry curry, in and out, and souplantation. other than that, we've just been driving around a lot. we drove along the pacific coast highway or whatever it's called last night...and it was beautiful! today we went down to irvine. i really liked it down there...but UCI is SO different from ann arbor. i don't know if i could really adjust. (= i think tomorrow we're going to go hiking in santa barbara....

i think i may have seen that movie...no, just kidding..i'm thinking of that other chandler movie with selma hayek. anyhoo...i'm super psyched about cali! you know me...i finished packing this morning. (= well, about what's going on in my life (or maybe more like my head), i'll just have to email you liz. i'm sure grace and i will spend hours catching up once i get to cali...and meesh sees all the little neurotic things that happen in my life day in and day out. so i guess i'll just have to send you a novel about my summer so far lizzie.

so i was looking over all my plans for the fall, and i realized that i have overcommitted. ahhhhh! well...it's possible to do it all...but most certainly not by my own strength.

my thoughts are quite random tonight. (=

yay! to fellow blogs! (=

i've been kinda dry lately with blogging material. as you'll probably have seen...my page is mostly just what i do everyday. not exactly the mostt exciting stuff. (= but things have been "hectic" in a weird way around here. i think that b/c we're all so bored that we make up stuff to do and then we seem busy. but really we just can't stop hanging out with each other. haha! but all the boys are gone now. fong left this afternoon. *sniff* so it's just meesh, chris, and me. but i'm going to LA/SD in less than 48 hours...so what i am complaining about. (= and then right when i get back, the art fair will be here! and then i go to miami! and then hopefully somebody will offer me a job! yay! yeah....

so yeah, it really sucks not having a job. b/c you have so much time to do stuff...but then you just end up spending more money that you don't really have. meesh, chris and i were talking about that today. but with all the boys gone now, hopefully we won't be going out as much. i must admit that the past month has been really a lot of fun though. fong did nothing everyday...and larry would literally travel between novi and ann arbor like every other day. we all got to do a lot of hanging out and just chilling. but like i said earlier...the expenses added up. sigh....

i wish you girls were here for spring/summer just to see what it's like. i love it. i absolutely love it here. if i had a job, then it would be perfect. well...at least i'm doing research.

we didn't do much on the 4th. i blogged about it earlier on my own page. i've really enjoyed the bars/clubs here! although i've only been to 3.... anyhoo...i had A TON of fun the night we went out to rick's a few weeks back. (= (= (=

i've gots lots to share...but not on our page...i think i'd bore the rest of the world...or not. (=

if it helps, i hate computers as well. (=

so girls, our wonderful regents apartment began to flood again yesterday, so once again, our basement is cleared out. luckily this time, i caught the water begining to seep in before it got too bad. i don't think our carpet needs to be replaced this time. but it was annoying as heck to have to move out...once again. so not only is our apartment now hot and dirty, but it smells as well. how wonderful. i ended up sleeping across the street last night, which is actually a lot cool than our apartment...but of course 10 times dirtier. (=

whacha up to lizzie? i never see you online anymore )=

"grace better make it good.....if u hate it, i'll have to be really disappointed in her."

got that gracie? that's a direct quote from jon. (=

14 more days till CALI!!!!

well, i guess liz blogged.... it's a good start. (= but better keep it up b/c otherwise this page will go from regentgals to chubbs & hugsy. (=

since i'm stuck at home waiting for the decision on my sister's graduation location, i might as well blog my attributes. i think my job has been made easier b/c chris, mike, and i brainstormed about this a few days ago. (=

5'9"...give or take an inch or so --> i'd say i'd like a tall 7 foot guy, but seeing that i'm not such a tall gal myself, i think that would make things difficult. (= i'd like my guy to be athletic. i can be quite a klutz...walking in the things left and right. no man better be less uncoordinated than me. must dress well but not better than me. but he must look comfortable and presentable. the kind of dresser who receives compliments occassionally on what he wears. must be clean-shaven...short hair. cute smile, great set of teeth. smiles a lot b/c he's happy. takes care of his body: regular visits to the dentist, works out, checkups, eats 3 balanced meals a day.

intelligent. not necessarily a genious, but someone who i can have intellectual conversations with. someone who reads the newspaper or newsmagazines. someone who reads novels...both classics and new bestsellers. someone who is clued into pop culture as well. not too keen on trendy though. someone who will go see movies with me on opening nights and watch the oscars with me every year. someone who knows their sports. i'm starting to learn a few things here and there, but i'm most definitely interested in learning a lot more about everything. so this guy better be able to clue me in. (=

musical interest is a must. i like a little bit of everything. but is important that my guy be willing to go to classical concerts and operas with me. having picnics while listening to the philly orchestra play live has been one of my favorite pasttimes growing up. interest in art as well. architecture...photography...just a guy who is interested in learning more about anything. someone who can keep up with me and at the same time be patient with me. (= a well-rounded cultured guy.

sweet...cheezy in his own way...but if the guy gets more cheezy than me i will be sick. someone who likes to make new memories...and not always reliving the old. likes dinner and a movie. i'm not very big on gifts unless it is homemade or something really rare and special. i'd rather a guy just spend his time with me or take me out to do something. someone who is emotionally stable. somebody who likes to do their own thing and yet really loves the time we spend together. somebody who loves kids. somebody who is tight with his parents. someone who will place their family above their friends and their work. someone who is wise with their money: not stingy...and yet very responsible in budgeting. someone who appreciates fine dining once in a while. someone who likes taking vacations.

someone who appreciates my giddiness and spouts of hyperness. (= i've got a lot of quirks...somebody's gonna have to deal with them.

he must be respectable. the kind of guy that all the other guys look at and say...now that's a guy that i admire. he can't be too sensitive, but he must be caring. he should have a good sense of how everybody is doing. tight with his guys. treats all ppl with respect. will not lose his temper easily. just a very likeable guy...but not b/c he's a flirt. flirty guys make me weary. simply likeable b/c he's THAT GOOD of a guy.

a strong and growing Christian. serves the church in some sort of way b/c of his love for God's kingdom. the guy could have everything else listed above and that would make him quite a guy. but this last thing would most definitely be the clincher. (=

YES! thank you SO much for the cookies! (=
before you leave...send me the receipts (=

grace! where are you?! )=

favorite TV commercials (currently...in no particular order)
1) the cheezy bread commerical with the little girl saying "you're free cheezy bread, you're free!"
2) the yahoo commerical with the talking dolphin
3) the blockbuster commercials with the guinea pig and the rabbit
4) the mac commerical where it imitates the guy through the window
5) the bk commercial with the cartoons singing and dancing

b/c we are single, i think it is appropriate to post our guy "lists." this is in an effort to help each other find guys. (= this is also in an effort to figure out what we want. (=

you know...i don't think i really check out guys all that much. or maybe there's just freakin nobody who catches my attention, so just remain in my state of oblivion. quite possible when i think about it now....

yeah gracie...stick to the 40 days 40 nights josh hartnett high five business. you wouldn't want to give me the wrong idea by reciprocating my romantic overtures...hahaha!

i must admit that there are still good guys out there that aren't taken or gay...it's just a matter of God's timing. (=

ok...here goes...

why boys suck:
1) they ALWAYS check out girls...24/7
2) they tend to be absorbed in their own little world...esp when the tv is on
3) very few are actually considerate by nature

hmmm...i'm sure there's more...but i kinda like all my guy friends.... so it's kinda hard to make up stuff about others.

why boys don't suck:
1) sometimes all you need is someone to hold you...nobody better than a boyfriend (=
2) if you catch them at just right moment, they can be awfully cute in their ways
3) when that guy walks into your life, everything just seems to be shade brighter

yeah...i thought there would be more here too....
well, i'm sure i'd have a lot more to say whence the day of a new relationship comes around (=

lizzie, did you send me the cwebb postcard?!

we need an interesting topic to discuss...since hot boy is now forever gone. gracie i give you the honors since you are the most bored out of all of us (=

I SAW THE HOT BOY TODAY! ok, but he's DEFINITELY not my type. he's smoldering....hahahaha!
lizzie, you don't need beauty sleep...you are beautiful already. (= hahaha...now i officially hit on all you guys! woohoo!
but seriously, i think about you guys all the time...and how much i miss you all...sniff...sigh....

why would you get into trouble for blogging?! i'm sure they'd understand (= just tell them that if you don't blog, then gracie might die of boredom.... (=

meeeeeesh is MAD hyper.
you ask why?
it's always about a boy. (=

my first memory is from when i was 4. we were living in the apts behind the mall. my mom took me out to play at the playground. i remember the sun setting that night, and the sky was red and orange-y. when we went inside, i had a bubble bath, and i remember bubbles getting into my eyes. hahaha! too bad i still get shampoo into my eyes...on occassion.... hee hee hee...

so i think i had part 2 to my dream last night. well, it was the same situation. except this time when i talked to my dad, i felt like i had to reason with him, although he was being stubborn. it was like pulling teeth. i don't even really know exactly what that phrase translates to, but i guess it's like watching grass grow.... again, like my first dream, it was about summer plans, and how i didn't have any. i was pretty stressed out in my dream the first time...and also the second time. so, it's kinda a true about my real life situation. i don't have set plans right now, and i am a little concerned. i know that my dad is concerned too (simply b/c he doesn't want me to waste 2 months doing nothing productive)...and he HAS been nagging, but by no means has he been angry at all. i think thas why i was so upset in my dream the first time.

so i kinda thought things through today about this dream b/c i was bored at work, and i had finished all my homework already. and i realized what all of this may be about. so i guess the scene with my dad makes sense b/c it has been on my mind. but i think the emotions behind the dream are definitely coming elsewhere. there's definitely been this looming fear recently about getting into a relationship...and it being utterly disasterous. aiya...why must i feel like so much is at stake? oh well, i guess there's no point in getting so worked up about it until someone is actually in the picture. (=

les start a thread of blogs! first topic of convo: what's the very first event in your life you can remember. (=

i love you girls. you girls are the wind beneath my wings...hee hee hee (and grace mutters DORK)

as you can see i had some fun tonight (=
hope you like the changes girls!!

grace, look this one up -->

i woke up crying the other night because i was hysterical in my dream. i had gotten into this awful argument with my dad. first of all, this never happens...and second of all, he was being ridiculously unreasonable. he wouldn't listen to me at all. i think thas why i got so frustrated in my dream. it was pretty upsetting.

ok, added links to our individual pages on here and and the quote board (=

lizzie and i watched serendipity this weekend at caroline's! i liked it...hee hee

mel is sleeping over tonight! yay!

dang liz, you really were up early (=

i've got 10 minutes until work...woohoo! a funfilled 3 hours of doing nothing and getting paid!

so i'm a bit discombobulated. i need to pay off my bills, but i can't find the rest of my checks! ack! i dunno where they could be. if i were still using the desk upstairs, i'd know (blue, 3, back...hahaha!)...but since the move...i'm just all confused. (=

TOTALLY know how you feel about God answering prayers lizzie. (= sigh (= He always gives us so much more than we expect, need, and deserve. how fortunate, we are! (yoda style...hee hee)

it's a beautiful day in ann arbor for once! can't wait to enjoy it when i'm done with work!

PRAISE GOD for this awesome day!

i wonder what else i do in my sleep. maybe i should tape myself sometime. LOL!

i know right? what's up with meesh not blogging? she's the one who started all this! haha!

dude! i laughed in my sleep the other night...well, according to larry! larry was in my dream that night....LOL! i'd share...but blogs are public...so i dunno if he'd appreciate it....hahaha! you'd love it too...if only you knew! well, thas the only news about dreams i have for you...maybe you can look up laughing in your book. hahaha!

i wonder if chris and cindy will blog?

ack! i can't believe you're never coming back gracie.

howie - why you gotta be so far away??????

ok i had to blog TODAY here b/c i think it's definitely a new record. not only did LIZ blog, but 3 out of the 4 regentgals blogged in one day! God only knows when that will happen again! i miss you girls SO much. meesh and i are doing the same old same old stuff to amuse ourselves. but it's never quite the same without you 2 laughing at us. hahahaha! ok, i get to see liz in 2 days! woohoo! i get to see grace...i dunno.... there was actually a $145 ticket to charlotte for the weekend, but i already gave my time to lizzie. but the day will come soon gracie!

ok, when i actually have time, i WILL spiff up this page a bit. gotta learn all that html junk first. and dun worry grace...i'll teach you all the cool stuff eventually =P

much love from the state of wacky weather!

it's strange how grace and lizzie are gone. i definitely feel like i'm living in a different dimension. (= i miss you 2! i hope that you guys are having fun in ny!

BLOG BLOG BLOG
why?

b/c grace said so
so what's up gals!
gals rule!
regentgals, that is (=

lefter, righter, inner, outter? my gosh i'm gonna miss you grace

the boys across the street are SO MEAN! (=

all i can say is that some pretty funny things were stated last night:

everything from being tolerant versus being a midget
to videos of a certain genre...and defining them...
to "flirty" talk
to east versus midwest versus west
to white versus asian
to the LISTS of perfect spouses
not to mention closet sluts...

and of course there's always paul's ideal: blonde and blue-eyed but chinese, sorority girl hair, british accent with a slightly raspy voice...GL there...

and contrary to popular belief, kat DOES NOT have a thing for 7'3" 300-some pound basketball players from LA....
she does have a thing for ray allen though (= (= (=
but that doesn't matter b/c she's gonna marry taiwanese anyway...according to her little deal with God...heh heh heh

Liz has entered the land of no return. (=
don't stress too much lizzie, it's not worth it!

it's been an entertaining evening. good laughs with graice...i had another quotable to put on the wall. (=

"i don't think she's that pretty"
"the top of her face is"

man, we're harsh... (=

i'm feeling a whole lot better...tanks fo ashking
i'm sleeeepee now...time for beddy by!

YAY! somebody else blogged other than me! i guess you guys were right about your prediction...i guess it just took me a little longer than anticipated to get addicted. (=

so yea! regentgals dinner was fun last night. i think it was the best i looked after dinner...haha...jk jk. at least it was a "healthy glow"...and not tomato red like that time at charlie's...... (= so yea, aren't you guys glad i asked those thought-provoking questions? gets you thinking huh? managed to make grace blog a long one. har har.

i'm really bored right now. literally, i'm just waiting for time to pass.

so i totally agree with what grace was saying about bashing ppl. it really is a waste of time. i know how hard it is no to do it though. but i guess when you really thinking about it, it truly is wasted energy. i mean, think of all the productive things you could be doing with your life instead! besides...when you bash, it only makes the bitterness that much stronger...and that much harder to resolve. so good for you gracie. you're right...it's such a waste of time.

i think the person A and person B thing is different in every situation. sometimes the ppl in it know better, but sometimes the outside friends do. i think it's a pretty tough call. just pray! hee hee (=

i was actually also thinking about the changing when you like someone phenomenon. i guess i started thinking about it when meesh pointed out last week that she's like a chameleon. i know for a fact that i've been like that to a certain degree in every relationship i've been in. it's not really the guy's fault that i was like that, but i think that certain guys i dated didn't really help the situation either. i think that's why i've always been so confused in relationships. b/c i really didn't know who i was or what i liked. so some days i was ok with just being whoever i thought the guy wanted me to be, but other days it would just really make me mad. but then sometimes i go to the other extreme (on rare...but notable...occasions), where i'm so gung ho about certain things that i'm so unwilling to change. pretty messed up huh?

but it's different now. thank God! when i think about it, i do feel really bad about the ways in which i've treated a lot of guys. i have no shame in admitting that i've had a pretty messed up concept of what a relationship should be like. but i guess that's part of life, and i'm just so thankful for how God's changed me. i'm a living testimony to the power of God! woohoo! ok, that was cheesy...but it's tru... (=

you know girls, thinking about the chase thing...i think it's possible to always have a chase. really! i was thinking about it before i fell asleep last night. you just have to pace yourself. it's feasible. can't explain it right now...but i had this whole theory in the works last night. (=

dude, i blog way too much way too fast. "so much to say!"

there must be something in the air......

oh the joys of meeting with my marketing group. after showing up 35 minutes late (gotta work on that...), i was delighted to see that we weren't doing work. (= instead, the boys wanted dating advice from LISA and myself. one of the boys is head over heels for a girl he met at work 2 weeks ago and started dating...and he doesn't want to come off as a "stalker." one of the other boys is all nervous about being rejected by one of lisa's girlfriends, whom he's met only once. and that would be the premise of our time together this afternoon......

according to tad, a girl's personality is 80% of the battle. and actually, if a girl's made it that far, she doesn't even have to worry too much about the last 20% of her looks. the natural look is best; if a girl can look just as beautiful when she gets up in the morning...or even more beautiful...than when she goes out at night, then that's true beauty. awwwwww (=

so then we talked about the stalking thing and how to show a girl how much you like a girl without scaring her off. we all agreed that it depends on what the situation was like before the interest kicked in. in my own experience, guys who start pursuing a girl after only having met her run a much higher risk of being labeled a stalker. that's just the way it is. now, i'm not saying that it's ALWAYS true b/c i believe that a guy is actually capable of really liking a girl (to the point of wanting to pursue her right away) without it purely being for physical attraction or having these ridiculous notions of eternal bliss. but statistically speaking, that couldn't possibly be the case with every guy that i've labeled as stalker. the world just doesn't work that way. (=

but like i said earlier, every guy and situation is different. there's really no magic formula. really, it's just gut instinct. true, sometimes us girls screw up, and we get all paranoid. i know i'm guilty of having done that. but the past is past, and i've learned.

so one of the boys was wondering if it would be easier to approach a girl if he were just drunk. if you really a girl, then don't ever do that. it'll set you back on the path of progress...way back. it's maybe flattering for like the first 5 minutes b/c you get the satisfaction of knowing that you're desirable, but then it just gets obnoxious. *cough.* (= but seriously, if 80% or whatever majority % of a girl is personality, hitting on a girl when you're drunk isn't exactly the best way to show her that that's how much you value personality. i can see how it would be different if you've known the person for a while, and you're actually friends, but that kinda goes back to a kind of stalker on my list of types. so really it's a lose-lose situation.

i'm not trying to lay out a strict regimen for guys to follow...nor am i saying that once you screw up it's the end of the story. don't get me wrong, i'd be the first to admit that girls can be pretty ridiculous in their behaviors as well. (= but i AM saying that 2 wrongs don't make a right though. so i'm just here to give some friendly advice to help you boys along...you ppl are always asking anyway. (=

i hope this gets published b/c it would be a big fat waste of time if it didn't. ok, maybe not...i guess at the very least it'd help me organize my thoughts.

so i got my first response, so that's why i'm blogging again. although, it's just ANDRI, so i dunno if that really counts...jk. (= anyway, she commented on my "judging others" entry, and there's 2 things that she mentioned that i think is worth quoting: 1) the purpose for everything is God's glory (not that it works out to teach me things in life, or others. it usually works out that way, but there's a much higher purpose). 2) all that i'm responsible for is trusting in God. the love flows and remains that way, instead of me trying to "care" about people on my own.

if only i lived each and every day of my life in total belief to this, then maybe i wouldn't get myself into so much trouble all the time. (=

God's been blessing me in tremendous ways for the past week or so though, and it couldn't have come at a better time. At some point on Saturday, i dabbled with the idea of doing something quite stupid with my life. Luckily with all the ppl over this weekend, I didn't have time to really think about it all that much, and praise God for that b/c it probably would've negated everything God's pulled me through this year. God's timing is ridiculous (and i use that word in a good way). it just makes me stand in even more awe of Him and His divine power.

in a tiny little nutshell, God made me realize that i don't have to be so scared of moving on. i'm always scared b/c i feel like there won't be anything better. like when i graduated high school, i was terrified of coming to college b/c everything that i knew and loved was going to be way back in good old cherry hill. and the sad thing is, that even though i can see how God has provided in great ways the past 3 years, i am still scared of moving on from here. i think i need to constantly remind myself of all the ways God's been faithful in His promises and answering my prayers. i was talking to LAURA about that today, and man, it's just so easy to get wrapped up in your own woes and forget that God has something so much greater in store.

But as i said, God has been consistently assuring me the past week that His plans for me are so much greater than what i see in front of me right now. i know that sounds so simple, and those words can just roll off anyone's tongue. but really, when you think about what that means, it's quite mind-blowing. especially when you get a glimpse of what your life could be like if you let God take control. (=

dridri - we studied this in small group last night. and i think it goes well with all the stuff we talked about last year. "Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. BE JOYFUL IN HOPE, PATIENT IN AFFLICTION, FAITHFUL IN PRAYER. Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality....Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." - Romans 12:9-13, 21
i love and miss you andri...thanks for stopping by on tuesday. CONNECTION for all eternity. (=

"Turns out not where but who you're with that really matters, and hurts not much when you're around. And if you hold on tight to what you think is your thing, you may find you're missing all the rest."

it works (=

hallo
i'm sitting in the grad right now...bumming for half an hour...until it's time to go to chinese class. haha, mike just imed me asking if the stalker was back b/c i signed on to my other screen name. (= nope nope, no stalkers anymore. i don't even dwell on the thought of someone stalking me anymore. it's pretty much a waste of time. so anyway, my life has been hectic the past few days; there's been a million ppl crashing at our apt for the past week. it's been fun...but no work has been done. i can't believe there's only 2 weeks left of class...i'm gonna fail all my finals! ok, no i won't, but everyone always says stuff like that. actually, i hope that i don't fail marketing...that would be really sad to see a big fat FAIL instead of PASS on my transcript.

anyhoo, so i think i'm at a really interesting point of my life right now. i'm 21, i've got one more semester of college, i've been getting crapped on for the past 2.5 years of my life (all for a great cause though...hee hee)...and i feel like anything is really possible at this point. haha...the cheesy side of kathy. ok, jk, it's not really a side...it's really the whole package. yea, so i'm rambling b/c i can't concentrate.

what else can i talk about?

so back to what i was talking about, i've been doing a lot of reflecting the past week or so, and i realized that i've come a really long way from what i was just a few years ago. i guess that's what college does to you if you let it. i think i'm just getting really nostalgic. i know i whine and complain all the time about the ridiculous drama in my life, but i'm actually quite thankful for everything that has happened. it's really forced me to take stock of why i am the way i am. i've been able to weed out some of the really crappy parts about me and learn to love the good stuff. like all this stuff with my identity has really defined my time at college: being asian american, taking a LOOOOONG break from violin and anything related to it, working out all the crap from every guy i've dated...and really letting go of past pain and tearing down the wall of bitterness (=, and OF COURSE, letting God take control of my life <3 <3 <3.

who would've ever guessed i'd want to be an asian american psychologist? ok ok...so i guess everyone guessed it. am i really that oblivious?! (=

anyway, i gotta find a time to go home. i really miss home. i've only got 8 more months until our new house is finished and we move! i'm pretty excited now though...we're living behind a golf course!!

i'm done rambling now. besides my 30 minutes are up. (=

liz really needs to blog...

OHMYGOSH

The PLAN is GONE!!!!!!

Why are we on western standard time?

Just A-Wondering

BTW, I think Liz lost her invitation to BLOG...so could you send it again Gracie?

(= GOD IS GOOD (=

2nd BLOG for KAT

I'm totally being unproductive right now. I tried studying, but it really didn't work. Although I DO feel MUCH better having talked to CHRIS. So I realized something last night. OK, maybe not realized but had someone point out to me.... The reason why I get so paranoid around certain people is because I always think that they're judging me. However, the truth of the matter is, I only think that they're judging me because I'm actually judging them. So why do I judge these people? Well, because of my analytical nature, my lack of communication with these people, and my constant need to understand the situations around me...I automatically construct reasons for people's behaviors. SO the problem is that chances are, my reasons are probably wrong, but because they exist, there's a certain level of tension that I manifest between these people and myself.

The SOLUTION?
Stop trying to figure people out and just ask them why they are the way they are.

I've never seen anybody do this before (or at least not in my circle of friends)...BUT it does make sense......

ANYWAY
Nothing else is new.

OH BABY
i found it quite amusing how many time i've been mentioned...and YET i'm just checking this thing out for the first time ever. so life is good...it's SO GOOD! it's amazing how GOD can do wonders...b/c i feel SO GOOD inside. last time i was this happy? this bubbly? this bouncy? WHO KNOWS?! OOOOOOOH YEAH......smash mouth is pumping. anyway, i just rocked my psych midterm. i stayed up all night...kinda...but i haven't studied like that since last year. it felt so good! in the ZONE and all. ok, i have nothing else to say.....

well.....at least not for now......heh heh heh heh

thanks for the KATS...they're cute (=